Addicted to Struggle
The story
Marie is having a very emotional quarrel with her sister, Sarah, and their sick mother over their mother's money and property. Her sister wants it all! Sarah managed to manipulate the old lady, who is very dependent on her, to give her control over all her assets and money. In recent months, Sara has systematically been wasting that money.
Marie says that she is not thinking of herself. She doesn't need mother's money! She is worried that after Sarah has spent all the money, she will desert their mother leaving her sick, lonely and poor.
Marie is hurt by her sister's betrayal and all the lies she tells. She is also hurt that her mother is not willing to listen to her warnings that Sarah will leave her with empty pockets. More than that, her mother sees her, Marie, as the enemy!
The fight between the two sisters becomes very ugly. Lawyers from both sides escalate the conflict, social workers are involved, and the mother, caught in the middle, is also very manipulative. It looks as if she enjoys all the attention she gets!
Marie is not surprised. She remembers a lot of occasions in which her sister was very selfish and did not care about doing wrong or hurting other people, including their mother. She is determent to rock every stone, to use every legal procedure that is available, to stop her sister from robbing the money and to nominate a public trustee that will handle her Mom's money. Marie puts all her energy in this drama, putting all her other aspects of life in hold.
Marie sees herself as an innocent victim of her selfish, scheming sister and her manipulative mother. She is not only hurt by the disloyalty but also by destroying the family forever.
The question
I can't understand how this could be my reflection.
Even so, if you say that we must take 100% of situations as mirror reflections, then what is the mirror reflection for me here?
The analysis
This story is a real challenge to analyze. Seemingly, it is a fight between Good and Evil. On the surface we could say that according to the Law of Polarity (opposites are the same - they are the +/- on the same quality sequence) we clearly have here an opposite reflection and her sister's evil is a reflection of Marie's goodness. However, this is not so simple. How does she attract the evil? By being good? This is nonsense.
Marie feels like a victim forced into a fight, who is struggling for justice. She believes that she is striving for a good cause, and she will win since morality and justice are on her side.
She swept into this drama, putting aside every thing else in her life. All that activity - meeting with lawyers, with social workers, going to court, endless phone calls - puts the rest of her life on hold.
Going a little deeper in our search, we looked for similar events and dramas in Marie's life.
Apparently, this pattern of "fighting for justice", of being the underdog, of being a victim of evil person is repeating itself.
First there were constant fights between Marie and her mother-in-law over the status of the 'first lady'. She felt that her mother-in-law was too involved, had too much influence over her husband, and was trying to put Marie down.
Second, when she got divorced from her rich husband, she felt like David against Goliath, fighting a strong family that wanted to leave her with nothing, while she felt she deserved half of the property.
Again - the underdog, the victim fighting Goliath, fighting for justice and to win (sometimes less and sometimes more), making her feel alive, vivid and strong. What she fights for or against determines who she is, gives her a sense of importance, superiority, meaning.
Conclusion & Action
One who needs to fight evil for his own self-determination, to feel good and in need of the big drama to feel alive, full of adrenaline, must attract evil into his life. If his life is full of harmony, against or for what will he fight?
From this perspective, a harmonious life has no meaning!
The war between David and Goliath makes the former strong, right, consequential, worthy etc.
I call this pattern: Addiction to struggle.
Marie believes in the paradigm that 'life is an ongoing struggle, and the struggle itself gives life meaning', especially the struggle from zero to success, from underdog to winner, from ruin to success etc.
For in understanding the Law of Attraction, the reflection can show us that one can be a good, gentle, moral, honest, loyal person but still hold onto the paradigm of 'struggle gives life meaning' to attract the drama, the evil and the great crisis into one's life.
Action: First, stop fighting. No matter what is happening, do not fight.
Second: Start living your own life, build a life of your own, do things you love, develop yourself, communicate with yourself, get to know yourself.
When you stop fighting you feel some EMPTYNESS, some hole in your life. Let it be and start filling it with positive actions and positive thoughts.
